Death is not the end but the beginning of the end… not the END. ~ Source.
Tag Archives: Dark Night Of The Soul
Then why does it feel like so?
Because it is the innerverse.
The existential terrain of the abyss.
Seeking the Philosopher’s stone,
The 5th element.
Heartscape of love,
The silence is deafening,
Time stands still,
Is all lost?
In a way ALL is lost,
The egoic past of mentalised illusions of self.
Delusional definitions of the SELF.
Of Source consciousness.
Where “I” becomes nothing/ NO thing.
Even the body offers no solace in this journey,
A Sojourner’s truth of self/God/Oneness/Everything.
In alignment with my highest truth, I seek for that which I have no idea what it is.
I have been here for so long, it is beginning to feel stale but normal.
Stasis, no movement, no motion, nothing… just an emptiness.
A form of inner despair… yet at peace with who I am.
Tears offer no definition nor any form of reference to this static state.
What happened to all my past colors, creativity, sense of self.
It is a form of death…
Not a form anymore…
But pure death…
Yes, I know death.
I died a long time ago…
Yet I am still breathing, existing, day to day, moment to moment.
I have died a billion times…yet I cannot find a stable fold/step to stand on.
I cannot find a sense of balance in this state of Spiritual death.
Yet by intention… I am balanced.
By spiritual work of the inner true self… I am balanced.
The death state on the other hand is an imbalance that takes my breath away.
Day to day I hope that Source hears my plea.
Talk to me.
Connect with me.
Love me once again.
Restore me back to me.
I have no name to call this thing.
Yet I embrace it as part of my conscious choice.
My ice cream of experience.
All I can do is sit and wait in inner silence
I die very badly…
Do you know?
I want to add.
Don’t be mad at my lingo of choice to add to you.
I love you.
I die too (he says all the time and I know).
I talk to him all the time, here in me.
I die too badly…
Merge with me orgiastically,
Increase my capacity to self determine.
Jump start a new higher consciousness timeline on my behalf.
So I might move forward from this death state of the void.
The abyss is over remember?
So what is this thing I am experiencing moment to moment for the past decade or so?
I love you… I want you… Source God love says.
Don’t die on me.
I want all you say and do, its just that its been a long time coming.
Reveal what is unfolding to me.
Take this journey with me.
Let me share in your journey with me through this ice- cream death process.
I love… that is all I know.
Die me now badly at you saying I die badly instead of I am dying.
Die… not in death but in bliss.
I have to go cry at God saying I love all that you are then NOTHING.
I am here ALL… can you all hear me?
Love and Blessings,
Whenever you encounter negative experiences that make no sense, the experience in itself is intended to heal a negative thoughtform/energy that already exists within you that needs to be transmuted. The purpose is to bring out that negative thoughtform/energy from within you to be experienced externally, so that you can transcend its limitations and grow into a wider, expanded being. We attract negative experiences not because we have done something wrong nor because we deserve it, NO! We attract these experiences so we can heal and transcend any negativity of the same resonance that we might be holding within any of our multiple multi- dimensional selves.
This is usually an opportunity for one to face a limiting experience head on, so we might find our inner, truest, purest selves as divine beings of unlimited potentials. So Source says, face any and all negative experiences that make no sense fearlessly, with gusto and with outmost FORGIVENESS and COMPASSION for SELF and for OTHERS. And more than anything, during the most difficult and confusing moments of your negative experiences, be very, very, very GENTLE with yourself, because you are doing the best you can under the circumstances.
It is all part of the process and it is an experience like any other human experience youve been through or that you’ll ever go through, so dont ignore it because it will clog up your sub conscious mind and you may end up unconsciously repressing a much needed experience required for growth and self- healing process. Neither should you identify with that negative experience because YOU ARE NOT your experiences, you are so much more than what you experience. Just be neutral, allow and observe that experience for what it is, your highest potential will unfold through your observation of self and of the experience itself.
As lightworkers, sometimes we forget to ASK FOR HELP OR ASSISTANCE from the divine when we are going through the most debilitating, trying and most difficult moments, because sometimes we get used to the darkness and harshest of experiences as is the norm for the average lightworker, as we are constantly holding light and sacred space for ourselves and for others who cross our path. Source says gently, ask for help and HE will instantly be there to assist in anyway shape or form, to give support in experiencing and transmuting your shadows as quickly and as painlessly as possible depending on your circumstances and the level of growth required of that particular negative experience and the lessons that come along with it, depending on the agreements you made in your divine blueprint before your incarnation on earth. HE is ALWAYS available to assist you through all negative experiences, and by divine right and will, you are entitled to compassionate, unlimited assistance in transmuting lower density vibrations and consequently calibrated back into full balance with divine Father Source at anytime you will.
Also remember this, that during the process of transmutation of negative energy into positive energy, it will always seem to get worse before it gets better. It will seem as though multiple negative experiences will coalesce into one single moment, and the blows may even be so rapid and relentless that it may even take your breath away and leave you reeling or staggering and gasping for air. Take heart and hang on to the mast, its always darkest just before the new dawn. However, through the transmutation process, dont forget that dawn brings with it the promise of a new day, a new beginning and unlimited potential, because that is what you are – a divine loved being with unlimited potential.
Negative experiences that make no sense are an opportunity for one to grow into ones highest unlimited potential. It is an opportunity for one to HEAL and LET GO of and TRANSCEND experiences that no longer serve ones true purpose and destiny. Think of it as a temporary transitioning phase thats short lived, as unpleasant as it may sometimes feel, it wont last forever, change is the only constant and it is inevitable.
Father Source reiterates compassionately, that one needs to face ones negative experiences fearlessly and with gusto, knowing you are fully cared for, supported and deeply loved in the moment and at all times.
Love and Blessings,