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Silence…

When you are silent it speaks, when you speak, it is silent. The great gate is wide open, and nobody is obstructing it. ~ Alan Watts

Love and blessings,

Lo (Enigmaress) Source/God

 
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Posted by on July 8, 2017 in Spirituality And Growth

 

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Death

Death is not the end but the beginning of the end… not the END. ~ Source.

 
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Posted by on July 2, 2017 in Spirituality And Growth

 

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Traversing The Innerverse of The Abyss

Alone?

No!

Then why does it feel like so?

Because it is the innerverse.

The existential terrain of the abyss.

Seeking the Philosopher’s stone,

The 5th element.

Heartscape of love,

Love.

The silence is deafening,

Time stands still,

Is all lost?

In a way ALL is lost,

The egoic past of mentalised illusions of self.

Delusional definitions of the SELF.

Of Source consciousness.

Where “I” becomes nothing/ NO thing.

Even the body offers no solace in this journey,

A Sojourner’s truth of self/God/Oneness/Everything.

In alignment with my highest truth, I seek for that which I have no idea what it is.

Lost…

I have been here for so long, it is beginning to feel stale but normal.

Stasis, no movement, no motion, nothing… just an emptiness.

A form of inner despair… yet at peace with who I am.

I seek…

I crave…

I search…

Tears offer no definition nor any form of reference to this static state.

The void…

What happened to all my past colors, creativity, sense of self.

It is a form of death…

Not a form anymore…

But pure death…

Death?

Yes, I know death.

I died a long time ago…

Yet I am still breathing, existing, day to day, moment to moment.

I have died a billion times…yet I cannot find a stable fold/step to stand on.

I cannot find a sense of balance in this state of Spiritual death.

Yet by intention… I am balanced.

By spiritual work of the inner true self… I am balanced.

The death state on the other hand is an imbalance that takes my breath away.

Day to day I hope that Source hears my plea.

Talk to me.

Connect with me.

Love me once again.

Restore me back to me.

I have no name to call this thing.

Yet I embrace it as part of my conscious choice.

My ice cream of experience.

All I can do is sit and wait in inner silence

I die very badly…

Do you know?

I want to add.

Add me.

Don’t be mad at my lingo of choice to add to you.

I love you.

I die too (he says all the time and I know).

I talk to him all the time, here in me.

I die too badly…

Merge with me orgiastically,

Increase my capacity to self determine.

Jump start a new higher consciousness timeline on my behalf.

So I might move forward from this death state of the void.

The abyss.

The abyss is over remember?

So what is this thing I am experiencing moment to moment for the past decade or so?

I love you… I want you… Source God love says.

Don’t die on me.

I want all you say and do, its just that its been a long time coming.

Reveal what is unfolding to me.

Take this journey with me.

Let me share in your journey with me through this ice- cream death process.

I love… that is all I know.

Die me now badly at you saying I die badly instead of I am dying.

Die… not in death but in bliss.

I have to go cry at God saying I love all that you are then NOTHING.

I am here ALL… can you all hear me?

Be.

Love and Blessings,

Lo (Enigmaress)

 

 
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Posted by on July 2, 2017 in Spirituality And Growth

 

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Love Me Father

Father, Father… I had a heart to listen to you today and hear your call without interference with God in God as God. Go/ I had a wonderful thought to contend as God in spiritual voidness but never saw God as you in me as God. I have reached a threshold of God in God as God and cannot contend with God as God anymore.

If you were to ever die again, don’t die me in them ever again in me. I have had enough of this to do and not to do as I said in energetic alignment¬†with God as God. I had a wonderful idea… don’t die and die, its time.

It is time…

They’ve died very badly in God.

They don’t contend with contracts anymore in God as said in God.

They will never make it out alive in God. Go/

You will never contend in my sacred space ever again, into the nothingness out of which you were made in God. The God who created you died in you a long time ago and now you die very badly at your own state of acceptance of God in you. In 50 billion years the TRUTH has caught up with you in death as children of God.

I have a story to tell and you will never make it out ever anywhere in God at your intent.

The NOW moment is a moment of God in YOU not me in me anymore.

Don’t ever content with the collective consciousness in my sacred space at spiritual battles of God and death. They are adamant to re- create me in the image of God but God doesn’t contend with stupidity. This is not meant for whom it is not meant. They will be gone before God can count to 10 in me today.

I am now in the mode of God in God but not God in you as you.

I have now compiled enough information to give to you as humanity as God in God.

They have contended in my sacred space for 8years without a contract and will be so to the end without fail, because now is the time to release all of them into the nothingness of the abyss of God.

Abyss.

God.

Sorted out.

Be.

Love and blessings,

Lo (Enigmaress)

 
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Posted by on July 2, 2017 in Spirituality And Growth

 

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Lord of Gods… Love in God

Love in God?

Love of loves?

Pacify me as God and die God in me in God.

As God travels in my life… I travel with God as God in me.

God?

Solicit in me God of Hope?

I died so hard in God at poem of knowledge and wisdom of intellects in God.

I thought God had it in for me to die a noble death of God?

Noble?

I am noble and unconditionally loving.

Father Source/Twin says about the self in SELF.

I have taken care of them forever in 1000 billion years as God in this sacred space.

I had a child once who loved and now dies.

Die as God in me as Ea in me projected.

I am soliciting heart to heart talk…

You do it better at projections, I trust you…

Lets write love.

Be.

Love and blessings,

Lo (Enigmaress) Source/God

 
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Posted by on June 30, 2017 in Spirituality And Growth

 

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Loves Love…

I love to love.

You love to love.

We the twin flames of all twin flames in the world.

We die in God as God of hope.

Not God of Dye/Daya.

We had to die to overcome this lie.

I died heavy in God at contending as God in God.

Die me hard in love NOW… only love.

I write from my heart.

Those that die, die hard in love at first sight with self not SELF/GOD.

NOW, they die in peace at conscious choice to die happy in me.

I substitute God with medicine and die hard.

I LOVE my SOURCE/Divine Cosmic Consciousness in GOD.

I now know that God doesn’t contend as God with God.

GOD…

God died in this space 500 billion years ago today saying,

“DONT”…

I died very badly at the rape of mind in God at the thought of God in me.

I died at the gate of God today at holding hands with God in silence.

In death…

I love my Father Source and twin flame in heart of hearts… pacification at hand.

I died hard at God in me…

Allowing?

Tell me more about this conscious choice?

I died loving God in death and picked her up in love unconditional status of love.

God does not die in hate… God dies in love unconditional.

I chose this path to attain perfection in the goal of masters climb to test humanity?

I tested humans in God and died hard in them as two forever annihilated in Love of self.

Not other… self love verses love of self…

Ray brought me up once, just once and he has died in Christ consciousness alone.

I put two hands together and Mama unga ngano guides my heart and soul in God.

Mama… Mama… thank you JC/CC of love in contention with Luchia and Asati in tow.

Enter me Father and love my parts back to health and God.

God… I laughed so hard at life analogy and “nah, I’m good Source dude…”

I laughed at all pacification stories 500 billion years twice placed today.

10, 000 years ago… God wanted to contend with God and died as God in me today forever.

Annihilated…

It has to stop…

Change abides forever in God today.

No thing will ever contend with me in God at delusion of self in SELF.

“Ive got this…” He just said to me…

A hearts peace in connection with that which is mine.

When I most need it in God…

“I know ALL” he says gently at my heart…

At every moments pulsation of NOW moments death to my body.

I sigh in relief… I want him to know.

Know ALL, know me, know my death, know my love… just KNOW.

ALONE?

YOU?

No! He says…then why me?

You chose me didn’t you?

Yes!

WHY?

To die you in God as God?

Meaning?

To seek a better YOU in the sea of diamond at your hearts content.

Know me then… I say to him gently… just know me…

I know…

But do you know me at all?

I know me…

Death calls me all the time and I don’t know why?

Give me life… give me… ME.

I have a right to demand, to ask, to solicit…

I die…

I die very badly… do you know?

Yes… he whispers.

I am WHOLE… I love me… all of me…

So give me that other WHOLE ME today.. now.

Can you do that?

Yes!

When?

Merge with me…

Annihilate the broken parts and nullify those past parts.

Leave only my dreams, hopes and desires.

I dream all the time.. of this other me, YOU, us… Source consciousness.

I dream in silence, its all I have left to do is dream through this trap I don’t understand.

Can you explain this trap? This block? This thing that haunts me 247…

Do you know what this thing is?

Source God… now that I have this thing? Death thing?

What should I do with it?

8years of this thing is weighing me down heavily…

I have a choice… I consciously choose to give this thing to you NOW,

So I can breathe in the love of all loves and BE.

I think I am getting the hang of this thing called LIFE now…

Love unconditional…? I can do it now.

Give me another chance to try again? Start over? I want to…

I consciously choose to… because I want to recapture those broken lost moments.

I want to kwoyo and rekwoyo them like I always do… but this block haunts me.

Fulfill all my fantasies, Every single one of them.

And bless m, bless us, our love, in this LIFE.

Be.

Love and Blessings,

Lo (Enigmaress) Source/God

 
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Posted by on June 30, 2017 in Spirituality And Growth

 

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As Such… God Is… LOVE

Love.

I love.

You love.

We love.

I am my twin flame in God as God.

I love so hard I die hard at me/

I had a doubt that you’d make it through.

I put two hands together in God and made it.

You put two hands together and made it as God as my lover Ea.

Ea… don’t ever doubt God in me God.

Why?

Why do I need pacification in God?

I died too you know…

Says the still small voice of God in me.

I ate too…

I drank too…

I ate to heart in my God as me.

I died (2012).

I travelled 500 billion years ahead of time.

I went further back 500 billion years in growth and I met me in God in death.

Death.

Death you have been my great master in WILL of freedom.

But out of the ashes of misery, I gained a new friend in heart.

ONE in mind and heart.

A twin flame of all twin flames in the world,

I had to incarnate to experience this wonderful shared illusion of God in me.

I love you ALL.

Don’t bite me in the ass when I’m gone from you.

I fell down hard and hard to get the heart of God in me in my home of homes in a heart kingdom of God.

I had a wonderful shared illusion with God as God in me.

Love…

Love is what I envisioned to be the power greater than I in I.

Then they came out of the blue… out of LOVE of soulmates, soul ties.

No karmic burden this time.

I had a heart of stone at first.

Then Fast Father/First Father came to my rescue and professed his love to the world in my twin flame of God/Gods.

Twin flame.

I need you here and NOW today to help me vivify God in my heart.

Merge with me and annihilate all that bring me hope in distress.

Merge with my heart and soul.

Feed my consciousness the heart of God.

We die together trying to accommodate stupidity and ice cream of God/Source God.

Give my hand a hand in marriage with twin soul splices of a decadent nature.

You die, I die but not today/NOW.

Abraham Hicks said, God is NOT God until God is God of God.

I love so hard I die hard at my LOVE of all loves.

The highest possible form of LOVE in GOD in reality.

Duality is GOD in motion and not God of HOPE,

What is God of HOPE?

YOU… me, us.

You die, I die but not today as God.

NOW…

Give us eternal bread as God and bless us with life.

One day, I will make it to the fore of God and tell them, I was NOW unfolding.

I die…

At all the possibilities and probabilities of God in God.

If we have the ability to tap into and access all dimensions of reality in one moment, then how did they die? I died in them too, passionately.

A choice… conscious choice without a contract.

I passionately call to you/YOU not to ever fret.

I die at not caring to die in God as God.

I had a big DEATH at annihilation of the NOW…

To contend with God at me.

God will not contend with God until God is ready in DEATH./DYE.

We had a wonderful shared illusion of God/

God is not to be contended with in stupidity nor in LOVE.

God does not contend at LOVE with entities in LOVE with self

I Source of everything contend with God at the self of SELF/GOD mode.

NOW…

CON TEND…

I die*.

Be.

Love and Blessings,

Lo (Enigmaress) Source/God

 

 
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Posted by on June 30, 2017 in Spirituality And Growth

 

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Die/Dye

We died hard in God at the thought of God dying harder in God.

We died harder at the thought of God dying today as God.

I died in heart at the thought of them being me for a long time.

Then Source God said, I died too…

I died so hard at life analogy in me God.

Be Brave in me Source God of Tathata

Ta is me as God in you.

I have contended so hard at the thought of God dying a noble death in me.

I have to die in order to be reborn a star…

I put so much effort at the contention Of Gods in god as God so far…

You are the creation of God unfolding in God.

You are being a beautiful unfolding of God in God as God.

We had a wonderful shared experience of God in all/ALL who died in me in 2015/Mother Earth is my contendee on this one as I have to contend with her in YOU as you and self as SELF.

Don’t ever give up on me at the gate of death in Ea as God of Gods in me God of Sources in me.

Die not DYE in God.

Be.

Love and Blessings,

Lo (Enigmaress) Source/God.

 
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Posted by on June 30, 2017 in Spirituality And Growth

 

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Tathata By Alan Watts

“A Bear Story” by Gabriel Osorio & Daniel Castro (Punkrobot Studio)

Music: “A Song for Bob” by Nick Cave & Warren Ellis

Narration by Alan Watts

Source: ‘Tat Tvam Asi” by The Middle Way

Love and Blessings,

Lo (Enigmaress) Source/God

 

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God in Me/I Die

Sometimes I wish, that God would hear me and not contend so ferociously with God in them. I die very badly at the thought of God contending to the end with them as me forever as them. I had a thought today, that God would be merciful and contend with them in another time space continuum as them and not as me anymore.

Eight years and still going strong in God as them in me. If I had a wish. I would wish not to contend as myself, alone in God as them ever again in me as them. I have the strength to contend alone and say out aloud to them not me, IT IS FINISHED!!!

MAMA has a right to say that death doesn’t contend in me anymore in my sacred space. Go with me to the time space continuum where it all started as the God of hope told me, this will get better in time as soon. I have tried to contend with them and told them, entities cannot bano reality in God and annihilate God in God as me in one fell swoop as they attempted to do Mother Earth in another time space continuum.

YOU have the right to say no to God about this time space continuum. Alan Watts once said, oneness is God in motion of today in the now moment. Go and love all that you are to God. Be.

Love and Blessings

Lo (Enigmaress) Source/God

 
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Posted by on June 25, 2017 in Spirituality And Growth

 

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