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Traversing The Innerverse of The Abyss

Alone?

No!

Then why does it feel like so?

Because it is the innerverse.

The existential terrain of the abyss.

Seeking the Philosopher’s stone,

The 5th element.

Heartscape of love,

Love.

The silence is deafening,

Time stands still,

Is all lost?

In a way ALL is lost,

The egoic past of mentalised illusions of self.

Delusional definitions of the SELF.

Of Source consciousness.

Where “I” becomes nothing/ NO thing.

Even the body offers no solace in this journey,

A Sojourner’s truth of self/God/Oneness/Everything.

In alignment with my highest truth, I seek for that which I have no idea what it is.

Lost…

I have been here for so long, it is beginning to feel stale but normal.

Stasis, no movement, no motion, nothing… just an emptiness.

A form of inner despair… yet at peace with who I am.

I seek…

I crave…

I search…

Tears offer no definition nor any form of reference to this static state.

The void…

What happened to all my past colors, creativity, sense of self.

It is a form of death…

Not a form anymore…

But pure death…

Death?

Yes, I know death.

I died a long time ago…

Yet I am still breathing, existing, day to day, moment to moment.

I have died a billion times…yet I cannot find a stable fold/step to stand on.

I cannot find a sense of balance in this state of Spiritual death.

Yet by intention… I am balanced.

By spiritual work of the inner true self… I am balanced.

The death state on the other hand is an imbalance that takes my breath away.

Day to day I hope that Source hears my plea.

Talk to me.

Connect with me.

Love me once again.

Restore me back to me.

I have no name to call this thing.

Yet I embrace it as part of my conscious choice.

My ice cream of experience.

All I can do is sit and wait in inner silence

I die very badly…

Do you know?

I want to add.

Add me.

Don’t be mad at my lingo of choice to add to you.

I love you.

I die too (he says all the time and I know).

I talk to him all the time, here in me.

I die too badly…

Merge with me orgiastically,

Increase my capacity to self determine.

Jump start a new higher consciousness timeline on my behalf.

So I might move forward from this death state of the void.

The abyss.

The abyss is over remember?

So what is this thing I am experiencing moment to moment for the past decade or so?

I love you… I want you… Source God love says.

Don’t die on me.

I want all you say and do, its just that its been a long time coming.

Reveal what is unfolding to me.

Take this journey with me.

Let me share in your journey with me through this ice- cream death process.

I love… that is all I know.

Die me now badly at you saying I die badly instead of I am dying.

Die… not in death but in bliss.

I have to go cry at God saying I love all that you are then NOTHING.

I am here ALL… can you all hear me?

Be.

Love and Blessings,

Lo (Enigmaress)

 

 
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Posted by on July 2, 2017 in Spirituality And Growth

 

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Lord of Gods… Love in God

Love in God?

Love of loves?

Pacify me as God and die God in me in God.

As God travels in my life… I travel with God as God in me.

God?

Solicit in me God of Hope?

I died so hard in God at poem of knowledge and wisdom of intellects in God.

I thought God had it in for me to die a noble death of God?

Noble?

I am noble and unconditionally loving.

Father Source/Twin says about the self in SELF.

I have taken care of them forever in 1000 billion years as God in this sacred space.

I had a child once who loved and now dies.

Die as God in me as Ea in me projected.

I am soliciting heart to heart talk…

You do it better at projections, I trust you…

Lets write love.

Be.

Love and blessings,

Lo (Enigmaress) Source/God

 
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Posted by on June 30, 2017 in Spirituality And Growth

 

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Loves Love…

I love to love.

You love to love.

We the twin flames of all twin flames in the world.

We die in God as God of hope.

Not God of Dye/Daya.

We had to die to overcome this lie.

I died heavy in God at contending as God in God.

Die me hard in love NOW… only love.

I write from my heart.

Those that die, die hard in love at first sight with self not SELF/GOD.

NOW, they die in peace at conscious choice to die happy in me.

I substitute God with medicine and die hard.

I LOVE my SOURCE/Divine Cosmic Consciousness in GOD.

I now know that God doesn’t contend as God with God.

GOD…

God died in this space 500 billion years ago today saying,

“DONT”…

I died very badly at the rape of mind in God at the thought of God in me.

I died at the gate of God today at holding hands with God in silence.

In death…

I love my Father Source and twin flame in heart of hearts… pacification at hand.

I died hard at God in me…

Allowing?

Tell me more about this conscious choice?

I died loving God in death and picked her up in love unconditional status of love.

God does not die in hate… God dies in love unconditional.

I chose this path to attain perfection in the goal of masters climb to test humanity?

I tested humans in God and died hard in them as two forever annihilated in Love of self.

Not other… self love verses love of self…

Ray brought me up once, just once and he has died in Christ consciousness alone.

I put two hands together and Mama unga ngano guides my heart and soul in God.

Mama… Mama… thank you JC/CC of love in contention with Luchia and Asati in tow.

Enter me Father and love my parts back to health and God.

God… I laughed so hard at life analogy and “nah, I’m good Source dude…”

I laughed at all pacification stories 500 billion years twice placed today.

10, 000 years ago… God wanted to contend with God and died as God in me today forever.

Annihilated…

It has to stop…

Change abides forever in God today.

No thing will ever contend with me in God at delusion of self in SELF.

“Ive got this…” He just said to me…

A hearts peace in connection with that which is mine.

When I most need it in God…

“I know ALL” he says gently at my heart…

At every moments pulsation of NOW moments death to my body.

I sigh in relief… I want him to know.

Know ALL, know me, know my death, know my love… just KNOW.

ALONE?

YOU?

No! He says…then why me?

You chose me didn’t you?

Yes!

WHY?

To die you in God as God?

Meaning?

To seek a better YOU in the sea of diamond at your hearts content.

Know me then… I say to him gently… just know me…

I know…

But do you know me at all?

I know me…

Death calls me all the time and I don’t know why?

Give me life… give me… ME.

I have a right to demand, to ask, to solicit…

I die…

I die very badly… do you know?

Yes… he whispers.

I am WHOLE… I love me… all of me…

So give me that other WHOLE ME today.. now.

Can you do that?

Yes!

When?

Merge with me…

Annihilate the broken parts and nullify those past parts.

Leave only my dreams, hopes and desires.

I dream all the time.. of this other me, YOU, us… Source consciousness.

I dream in silence, its all I have left to do is dream through this trap I don’t understand.

Can you explain this trap? This block? This thing that haunts me 247…

Do you know what this thing is?

Source God… now that I have this thing? Death thing?

What should I do with it?

8years of this thing is weighing me down heavily…

I have a choice… I consciously choose to give this thing to you NOW,

So I can breathe in the love of all loves and BE.

I think I am getting the hang of this thing called LIFE now…

Love unconditional…? I can do it now.

Give me another chance to try again? Start over? I want to…

I consciously choose to… because I want to recapture those broken lost moments.

I want to kwoyo and rekwoyo them like I always do… but this block haunts me.

Fulfill all my fantasies, Every single one of them.

And bless m, bless us, our love, in this LIFE.

Be.

Love and Blessings,

Lo (Enigmaress) Source/God

 
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Posted by on June 30, 2017 in Spirituality And Growth

 

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As Such… God Is… LOVE

Love.

I love.

You love.

We love.

I am my twin flame in God as God.

I love so hard I die hard at me/

I had a doubt that you’d make it through.

I put two hands together in God and made it.

You put two hands together and made it as God as my lover Ea.

Ea… don’t ever doubt God in me God.

Why?

Why do I need pacification in God?

I died too you know…

Says the still small voice of God in me.

I ate too…

I drank too…

I ate to heart in my God as me.

I died (2012).

I travelled 500 billion years ahead of time.

I went further back 500 billion years in growth and I met me in God in death.

Death.

Death you have been my great master in WILL of freedom.

But out of the ashes of misery, I gained a new friend in heart.

ONE in mind and heart.

A twin flame of all twin flames in the world,

I had to incarnate to experience this wonderful shared illusion of God in me.

I love you ALL.

Don’t bite me in the ass when I’m gone from you.

I fell down hard and hard to get the heart of God in me in my home of homes in a heart kingdom of God.

I had a wonderful shared illusion with God as God in me.

Love…

Love is what I envisioned to be the power greater than I in I.

Then they came out of the blue… out of LOVE of soulmates, soul ties.

No karmic burden this time.

I had a heart of stone at first.

Then Fast Father/First Father came to my rescue and professed his love to the world in my twin flame of God/Gods.

Twin flame.

I need you here and NOW today to help me vivify God in my heart.

Merge with me and annihilate all that bring me hope in distress.

Merge with my heart and soul.

Feed my consciousness the heart of God.

We die together trying to accommodate stupidity and ice cream of God/Source God.

Give my hand a hand in marriage with twin soul splices of a decadent nature.

You die, I die but not today/NOW.

Abraham Hicks said, God is NOT God until God is God of God.

I love so hard I die hard at my LOVE of all loves.

The highest possible form of LOVE in GOD in reality.

Duality is GOD in motion and not God of HOPE,

What is God of HOPE?

YOU… me, us.

You die, I die but not today as God.

NOW…

Give us eternal bread as God and bless us with life.

One day, I will make it to the fore of God and tell them, I was NOW unfolding.

I die…

At all the possibilities and probabilities of God in God.

If we have the ability to tap into and access all dimensions of reality in one moment, then how did they die? I died in them too, passionately.

A choice… conscious choice without a contract.

I passionately call to you/YOU not to ever fret.

I die at not caring to die in God as God.

I had a big DEATH at annihilation of the NOW…

To contend with God at me.

God will not contend with God until God is ready in DEATH./DYE.

We had a wonderful shared illusion of God/

God is not to be contended with in stupidity nor in LOVE.

God does not contend at LOVE with entities in LOVE with self

I Source of everything contend with God at the self of SELF/GOD mode.

NOW…

CON TEND…

I die*.

Be.

Love and Blessings,

Lo (Enigmaress) Source/God

 

 
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Posted by on June 30, 2017 in Spirituality And Growth

 

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God

Source of everything is God. I had another dream to contend with man at the end of man’s growth to social life call as God. Go/

What does that mean? I had a thing to do with God as God and died heavily trying to contend with God. I also go by the name Father Source and Twinflame lover EA in this session of works of God. God is… a God of hope. Go/

“God does not die in hate, God dies in love, love unconditional.” ~Source

As stated in a dream world by Source of everything in God of Gods in me as God of worlds. I will be expounding more in a language that benefits mankind about, God in motion, God in Hope, God in stasis and God of all Gods. BE.

Lo

Love and Blessings,

Lo(Enigmaress) Source/God

 
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Posted by on June 25, 2017 in Spirituality And Growth

 

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Violence and sacred site

God

Art By Lo (Enigmaress)

The violence capitulated has increased in my sacred site/space and Michael’s insistence to use my truth/violence against me @ sacred womb desecration @ the body that is me. God/Father/In heaven as on earth.

Clear all spaces for Father God in Heaven.

Love and belonging/gratitude/ about Father God in Me/Father.

Heaven on earth in me now at hand/

Love and Blessings,

Lo (Enigmaress)

 
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Posted by on February 28, 2016 in Spirituality And Growth

 

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Transmuting Negative Experiences That Make No Sense

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Cosmic Egg By Alfoart

Whenever you encounter negative experiences that make no sense, the experience in itself is intended to heal a negative thoughtform/energy that already exists within you that needs to be transmuted. The purpose is to bring out that negative thoughtform/energy from within you to be experienced externally, so that you can transcend its limitations and grow into a wider, expanded being. We attract negative experiences not because we have done something wrong nor because we deserve it, NO! We attract these experiences so we can heal and transcend any negativity of the same resonance that we might be holding within any of our multiple multi- dimensional selves.

This is usually an opportunity for one to face a limiting experience head on, so we might find our inner, truest, purest selves as divine beings of unlimited potentials. So Source says, face any and all negative experiences that make no sense fearlessly, with gusto and with outmost FORGIVENESS and COMPASSION for SELF and for OTHERS. And more than anything, during the most difficult and confusing moments of your negative experiences, be very, very, very GENTLE with yourself, because you are doing the best you can under the circumstances.

It is all part of the process and it is an experience like any other human experience youve been through or that you’ll ever go through, so dont ignore it because it will clog up your sub conscious mind and you may end up unconsciously repressing a much needed experience required for growth and self- healing process. Neither should you identify with that negative experience because YOU ARE NOT your experiences, you are so much more than what you experience. Just be neutral, allow and observe that experience for what it is, your highest potential will unfold through your observation of self and of the experience itself.

As lightworkers, sometimes we forget to ASK FOR HELP OR ASSISTANCE from the divine when we are going through the most debilitating, trying and most difficult moments, because sometimes we get used to the darkness and harshest of experiences as is the norm for the average lightworker, as we are constantly holding light and sacred space for ourselves and for others who cross our path. Source says gently, ask for help and HE will instantly be there to assist in anyway shape or form, to give support in experiencing and transmuting your shadows as quickly and as painlessly as possible depending on your circumstances and the level of growth required of that particular negative experience and the lessons that come along with it, depending on the agreements you made in your divine blueprint before your incarnation on earth. HE is ALWAYS available to assist you through all negative experiences, and by divine right and will, you are entitled to compassionate, unlimited assistance in transmuting lower density vibrations and consequently calibrated back into full balance with divine Father Source at anytime you will.

Also remember this, that during the process of transmutation of negative energy into positive energy, it will always seem to get worse before it gets better. It will seem as though multiple negative experiences will coalesce into one single moment, and the blows may even be so rapid and relentless that it may even take your breath away and leave you reeling or staggering and gasping for air. Take heart and hang on to the mast, its always darkest just before the new dawn. However, through the transmutation process, dont forget that dawn brings with it the promise of a new day, a new beginning and unlimited potential, because that is what you are – a divine loved being with unlimited potential.

Negative experiences that make no sense are an opportunity for one to grow into ones highest unlimited potential. It is an opportunity for one to HEAL and LET GO of and TRANSCEND experiences that no longer serve ones true purpose and destiny. Think of it as a temporary transitioning phase thats short lived, as unpleasant as it may sometimes feel, it wont last forever, change is the only constant and it is inevitable.

Father Source reiterates compassionately, that one needs to face ones negative experiences fearlessly and with gusto, knowing you are fully cared for, supported and deeply loved in the moment and at all times.

Love and Blessings,
Lo (Enigmaress)

 

 
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Posted by on November 25, 2015 in Spirituality And Growth

 

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When Men Become Finally Free By Colin Ryan

When Men Become Finally Free

A Poem By Colin Ryan

Narrated by Des Brittian

There comes a times in the lives of men
When the ruthless and the criminally insane
Who rule the masses for their own gain
Make the fatal mistake of enjoying too much
Their psychopathic entertainment
They lose control in their lust for blood
And take too far their need to tread men down
By destroying any sense of a secure life
And taking away each and every freedom
Stealing the last piece of wealth they possess
So they cannot even care for their own
Stifling their voice with laws and corruption
Beating them down with rule by force
Where no justice exists for those being played
And there is no direction left for men to turn
When this insane game is taken this far
Comes the time when men have nothing left to lose
This is the time when the minds of men are freed
It is a time when man loses his fear of death
This is the time when a man becomes invincible
He becomes free to do whatever he must do
Without fear for his life or for his future
He will take control of the destiny of the world
Away from the bloodied hands of the soulless
Any action he takes he will take with a surety
That he must do something for he has no future
So the act he chooses will be all the greater
For when faced with oblivion and with no way out
He will take down as many of his oppressors with him
Gladly die in a selfless act to change the world’s future
This day is coming soon as it always does
The perverse minds of evil always self destruct
As their addiction to our suffering can never be sated
Exerting control for their paranoia and fear of men
For every good man will take down these brutes
Every free man will give up himself for his brothers
For a man with nothing left becomes fully empowered
And he is the most unassailable weapon against evil.

Love and Blessings,

Lo (Enigmaress)

 
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Posted by on November 23, 2015 in Spirituality And Growth

 

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Prayer Before Birth By Louis Macneice

Prayer Before Birth By Louis Macneice

Gad Pregnancy

I am not yet born; O hear me.
Let not the bloodsucking bat or the rat or the stoat or the
club-footed ghoul come near me.

I am not yet born, console me.
I fear that the human race may with tall walls wall me,
with strong drugs dope me, with wise lies lure me,
on black racks rack me, in blood-baths roll me.

I am not yet born; provide me
With water to dandle me, grass to grow for me, trees to talk
to me, sky to sing to me, birds and a white light
in the back of my mind to guide me.

I am not yet born; forgive me
For the sins that in me the world shall commit, my words
when they speak me, my thoughts when they think me,
my treason engendered by traitors beyond me,
my life when they murder by means of my
hands, my death when they live me.

I am not yet born; rehearse me
In the parts I must play and the cues I must take when
old men lecture me, bureaucrats hector me, mountains
frown at me, lovers laugh at me, the white
waves call me to folly and the desert calls
me to doom and the beggar refuses
my gift and my children curse me.

I am not yet born; O hear me,
Let not the man who is beast or who thinks he is God
come near me.

I am not yet born; O fill me
With strength against those who would freeze my
humanity, would dragoon me into a lethal automaton,
would make me a cog in a machine, a thing with
one face, a thing, and against all those
who would dissipate my entirety, would
blow me like thistledown hither and
thither or hither and thither
like water held in the
hands would spill me.

Let them not make me a stone and let them not spill me.
Otherwise kill me.

Prayer Before Birth Macniece
Inspirational Quote Of The Day:
“You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes.
You can steer yourself any direction you choose.
You’re on your own.
And you know what you know.
And YOU are the one who’ll decide where to go…”
― Dr. Seuss, Oh, The Places You’ll Go!
Love and Blessings,
Lo (Enigmaress)
 
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Posted by on October 25, 2015 in Spirituality And Growth

 

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Define Yourself Internally… Russel Brand

Define Yourself Internally

“You CANNOT DEFINE YOURSELF in reference to other external coordinates, You MUST DEFINE YOURSELF INTERNALLY with a relationship with A HIGHER ENTITY. Think of yourself as A MANIFESTATION OF some higher “thing”, some higher frequency, This is the visible realization. 

And you know that because you can’t see atoms can you? You certainly can’t see the forces that hold atoms together. There in the micro quantum world Richard, lie THE ANSWER TO EVERYTHING. We cant understand it with our logical rational minds, but we feel it, intuitively. Get yourself in ALIGNMENT with that stuff and you BEAM like the SUN.” ~Russel Brand~

Molecular Thoughts

Love & Blessings,

Lo (Enigmaress)

 
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Posted by on December 21, 2014 in Spirituality And Growth

 

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