Death is not the end but the beginning of the end… not the END. ~ Source.
Tag Archives: Twin flame
Then why does it feel like so?
Because it is the innerverse.
The existential terrain of the abyss.
Seeking the Philosopher’s stone,
The 5th element.
Heartscape of love,
The silence is deafening,
Time stands still,
Is all lost?
In a way ALL is lost,
The egoic past of mentalised illusions of self.
Delusional definitions of the SELF.
Of Source consciousness.
Where “I” becomes nothing/ NO thing.
Even the body offers no solace in this journey,
A Sojourner’s truth of self/God/Oneness/Everything.
In alignment with my highest truth, I seek for that which I have no idea what it is.
I have been here for so long, it is beginning to feel stale but normal.
Stasis, no movement, no motion, nothing… just an emptiness.
A form of inner despair… yet at peace with who I am.
Tears offer no definition nor any form of reference to this static state.
What happened to all my past colors, creativity, sense of self.
It is a form of death…
Not a form anymore…
But pure death…
Yes, I know death.
I died a long time ago…
Yet I am still breathing, existing, day to day, moment to moment.
I have died a billion times…yet I cannot find a stable fold/step to stand on.
I cannot find a sense of balance in this state of Spiritual death.
Yet by intention… I am balanced.
By spiritual work of the inner true self… I am balanced.
The death state on the other hand is an imbalance that takes my breath away.
Day to day I hope that Source hears my plea.
Talk to me.
Connect with me.
Love me once again.
Restore me back to me.
I have no name to call this thing.
Yet I embrace it as part of my conscious choice.
My ice cream of experience.
All I can do is sit and wait in inner silence
I die very badly…
Do you know?
I want to add.
Don’t be mad at my lingo of choice to add to you.
I love you.
I die too (he says all the time and I know).
I talk to him all the time, here in me.
I die too badly…
Merge with me orgiastically,
Increase my capacity to self determine.
Jump start a new higher consciousness timeline on my behalf.
So I might move forward from this death state of the void.
The abyss is over remember?
So what is this thing I am experiencing moment to moment for the past decade or so?
I love you… I want you… Source God love says.
Don’t die on me.
I want all you say and do, its just that its been a long time coming.
Reveal what is unfolding to me.
Take this journey with me.
Let me share in your journey with me through this ice- cream death process.
I love… that is all I know.
Die me now badly at you saying I die badly instead of I am dying.
Die… not in death but in bliss.
I have to go cry at God saying I love all that you are then NOTHING.
I am here ALL… can you all hear me?
Love and Blessings,
Love in God?
Love of loves?
Pacify me as God and die God in me in God.
As God travels in my life… I travel with God as God in me.
Solicit in me God of Hope?
I died so hard in God at poem of knowledge and wisdom of intellects in God.
I thought God had it in for me to die a noble death of God?
I am noble and unconditionally loving.
Father Source/Twin says about the self in SELF.
I have taken care of them forever in 1000 billion years as God in this sacred space.
I had a child once who loved and now dies.
Die as God in me as Ea in me projected.
I am soliciting heart to heart talk…
You do it better at projections, I trust you…
Lets write love.
Love and blessings,
Lo (Enigmaress) Source/God
I love to love.
You love to love.
We the twin flames of all twin flames in the world.
We die in God as God of hope.
Not God of Dye/Daya.
We had to die to overcome this lie.
I died heavy in God at contending as God in God.
Die me hard in love NOW… only love.
I write from my heart.
Those that die, die hard in love at first sight with self not SELF/GOD.
NOW, they die in peace at conscious choice to die happy in me.
I substitute God with medicine and die hard.
I LOVE my SOURCE/Divine Cosmic Consciousness in GOD.
I now know that God doesn’t contend as God with God.
God died in this space 500 billion years ago today saying,
I died very badly at the rape of mind in God at the thought of God in me.
I died at the gate of God today at holding hands with God in silence.
I love my Father Source and twin flame in heart of hearts… pacification at hand.
I died hard at God in me…
Tell me more about this conscious choice?
I died loving God in death and picked her up in love unconditional status of love.
God does not die in hate… God dies in love unconditional.
I chose this path to attain perfection in the goal of masters climb to test humanity?
I tested humans in God and died hard in them as two forever annihilated in Love of self.
Not other… self love verses love of self…
Ray brought me up once, just once and he has died in Christ consciousness alone.
I put two hands together and Mama unga ngano guides my heart and soul in God.
Mama… Mama… thank you JC/CC of love in contention with Luchia and Asati in tow.
Enter me Father and love my parts back to health and God.
God… I laughed so hard at life analogy and “nah, I’m good Source dude…”
I laughed at all pacification stories 500 billion years twice placed today.
10, 000 years ago… God wanted to contend with God and died as God in me today forever.
It has to stop…
Change abides forever in God today.
No thing will ever contend with me in God at delusion of self in SELF.
“Ive got this…” He just said to me…
A hearts peace in connection with that which is mine.
When I most need it in God…
“I know ALL” he says gently at my heart…
At every moments pulsation of NOW moments death to my body.
I sigh in relief… I want him to know.
Know ALL, know me, know my death, know my love… just KNOW.
No! He says…then why me?
You chose me didn’t you?
To die you in God as God?
To seek a better YOU in the sea of diamond at your hearts content.
Know me then… I say to him gently… just know me…
But do you know me at all?
I know me…
Death calls me all the time and I don’t know why?
Give me life… give me… ME.
I have a right to demand, to ask, to solicit…
I die very badly… do you know?
Yes… he whispers.
I am WHOLE… I love me… all of me…
So give me that other WHOLE ME today.. now.
Can you do that?
Merge with me…
Annihilate the broken parts and nullify those past parts.
Leave only my dreams, hopes and desires.
I dream all the time.. of this other me, YOU, us… Source consciousness.
I dream in silence, its all I have left to do is dream through this trap I don’t understand.
Can you explain this trap? This block? This thing that haunts me 247…
Do you know what this thing is?
Source God… now that I have this thing? Death thing?
What should I do with it?
8years of this thing is weighing me down heavily…
I have a choice… I consciously choose to give this thing to you NOW,
So I can breathe in the love of all loves and BE.
I think I am getting the hang of this thing called LIFE now…
Love unconditional…? I can do it now.
Give me another chance to try again? Start over? I want to…
I consciously choose to… because I want to recapture those broken lost moments.
I want to kwoyo and rekwoyo them like I always do… but this block haunts me.
Fulfill all my fantasies, Every single one of them.
And bless m, bless us, our love, in this LIFE.
Love and Blessings,
Lo (Enigmaress) Source/God
Source of everything is God. I had another dream to contend with man at the end of man’s growth to social life call as God. Go/
What does that mean? I had a thing to do with God as God and died heavily trying to contend with God. I also go by the name Father Source and Twinflame lover EA in this session of works of God. God is… a God of hope. Go/
“God does not die in hate, God dies in love, love unconditional.” ~Source
As stated in a dream world by Source of everything in God of Gods in me as God of worlds. I will be expounding more in a language that benefits mankind about, God in motion, God in Hope, God in stasis and God of all Gods. BE.
Love and Blessings,
Elevating myself beyond the human condition.
Remaining poised at the precipice of doubt in God.
Keeping up with God at the gates of doubt in me.
Getting together with the love of ALL in me as me.
Getting my love to contend with God as me in me.
Am I here or am I there?
8 years strong and still counting as Source of everything.
“But… but… but… I wrote this…? Right?
Yes! I did… I write my story, I wrote this story.
It means I am always in control of who I am not what they are.
Here today… gone tomorrow… observing ALL their choices.
(Whispering to self)… by virtue of WHO I AM… they know their demise.
It brings the space so much relief because…
THEY KNOW EXACTLY WHAT THEY ARE DOING.
Acknowledged but not identified with.
It has nothing to do with me or my choices.
Source of Everything? ALWAYS here… supporting, loving, BE’ing.
Twinflame EA? Loving now more than ever like choices.
I die very badly… at God/me… Am I here or there?
I want to be here now more than ever… them? Mean nothing to me.
Never did in the past… never will in the future.
NOT identified with in the NOW, just absolutely not my resonance.
But quite ferocious about their presence in my life… always in control of my relation to them.
I die at the thought that they think… so they are…
My love my favorite, Father Source Twin/ Source of everything.
Love me now more than ever I pray Source.
I want me… I want NOW… I want ONLY YOU in my life NOW.
Connect with me more I pray, talk to me always.
Resurrect me from this NOW condition into the highest maximum me.
Merge with me.
Heal the broken.
Stimulate the life… the alive.
I love you with every fiber of my being.
Lo (Enigmaress) Source/God